Catholic Living
The Heavy Burdens We Carry
Randy Hain
I have been thinking a great deal about my experience at
Reconciliation this past Saturday. I felt an intense and unexplainable
urge to go and confess my sins when I woke up that morning. I try to go
every six weeks or so, but this was no routine visit to the priest for
me. I needed to unburden myself of the numerous venial sins I had
committed since I last participated in this Sacrament. I was able to see
the true nature of these sins as a tremendous burden on my shoulders,
as a fog that kept me from seeing the path ahead and absolutely as
obstacles in my relationship with Christ. I know these observations to
be true because the moment I left the confessional booth I felt as
though a huge weight had been lifted, my spiritual vision was restored
and I was again focused on serving the Lord.
Sin has weight.
Every sin I commit in thought, word or deed is transformed into
baggage that I carry around with me. As the weight accumulates, I begin
to experience dryness in my prayer life. I make excuses for not reading
Scripture and other books on our Catholic faith. My enthusiasm for
sharing my faith with others becomes dampened under the burden of the
sins I am carrying. My relationship with Christ is negatively affected
and the joy I should feel gives way to nagging self-doubt and guilt-all
because of sin. I am ashamed to admit that I feel like I am going
through the motions at times when the weight of sin becomes too great.
These bad habits which creep in are my warning signs, but do I heed
these warnings fast enough? How do I break out of this negative pattern?
Stop
and reflect with me for just a minute. When is the last time you went
to Reconciliation? How did you feel the very moment you were absolved
from your sins and did your penance? Compare that feeling with your
state of mind today. Have you noticed any of the warning signs I
mentioned in the second paragraph? Any that I did not mention? These
questions are not for the purpose of making you feel guilty. I just want
to encourage you to pause and reflect a little, as I have recently, on
how accumulated sin throws us off track and puts barriers between us
and serving Christ.
I have developed a great
appreciation for the wonderful gift of Reconciliation. When I was
reading about Catholicism in 2005 in advance of my conversion into the
Church a year later, I was immediately drawn to this Sacrament. I
clearly understood through scripture that Christ had given his disciples
the power to absolve sins and our priests are the delegates of Christ
and the successors of the early disciples. If you ask a Catholic convert
about the first time they participated in this Sacrament, don’t be
surprised at how deep and profound the experience was for them. I made
my first Reconciliation as a forty-year-old man and the experience of
confessing decades of sin was both terrifying and cathartic for me. I
will never forget how much better and liberated I felt when I cast aside
the burdens I had been carrying around for all those years and the
slate was swept clean!
It is easy for us to simply
say: “I will go to Reconciliation more often” It is certainly desirable
for us to participate in this Sacrament more frequently, but I want to
encourage all of us to think carefully about the real lesson of this
reflection: Our sins, if not addressed and confessed, will negatively
impact our relationship with Christ and the daily practice of our
Catholic faith. The other lesson is to avoid destructive patterns:
Reconciliation, followed by a period of sins, Reconciliation, followed
by a period of the same sins…madness! How do we grow in our faith
journey and break this pattern? Please consider these practical actions
to lessen the burden of sin, break out of harmful routines and make
the Sacrament of Reconciliation more fruitful:
- Pray for help and guidance.
Don’t go it alone. Ask our Lord for help. Give up our burdens to Him in
prayer. Fight through the “dry patches” in prayer and keep seeking Him
out. He is listening and is always ready to help. All He asks from us is
our total surrender to His divine will.
- Practice active reflection Take a few minutes each day to review our actions. Where did we sin? What caused it? The Jesuit Daily Examen
is a big help, but I also carry around a copy of the Examination of
Conscience to review on occasion. Consider this guidance from St.
Ignatius of Loyola: ”There are five points in this method of making
the general examination of conscience. First, give thanks to God for
favours received. Second, ask for grace to know my sins and to rid
myself of them. Third, demand an account of my soul from the time of
rising to the present examination. I should go over one hour after
another, one period after another. The thoughts should be examined
first, then the words, and finally the deeds … Fourth, ask pardon of God
our Lord for my faults. Fifth, resolve to amend with the grace of God.
Close with an Our Father."
- Look for patterns and repetition.
What sins are we repeating? Consider who we are with and the
environments we are in when we commit these sins. We can often break out
of bad cycles by avoiding people and situations which trigger sin. The
late Fr. John A. Hardon, S.J. once wrote: "Another word for bad
habits is "vices." These bad habits are acquired by the repetition of
bad actions. We may have the habit of unkind words, or of selfish
behaviour, which may have taken years to acquire. On the natural level,
it would take years to change these bad habits into the opposite
virtues. But with the grace of the sacrament of Confession, we can
overcome these vices in record time, beyond all human expectation."
- Know the Enemy.
The prince of this world is the Devil and he will never, ever cease to
trap us, sow seeds of doubt and lead us astray. Our best defense against
him is staying as close to Christ as possible in prayer and through the
Eucharist. A pure heart, free of sin and cleansed through the Sacrament
of Reconciliation, pulls us towards Christ and keeps the Enemy at bay.
St. Alphonsus Liguori wrote: "The devil does not bring sinners to
hell with their eyes open: he first blinds them with the malice of their
own sins. Before we fall into sin, the enemy labours to blind us that
we may not see the evil we do and the ruin we bring upon ourselves by
offending God. After we commit sin, he seeks to make us dumb, that,
through shame, we may conceal our guilt in confession."
- Be completely open and honest with our Confessor.
Tell the priest everything! We can't expect to be absolved if we
don’t share with candor what we have done or failed to do.
Also, we need to seek guidance on preventing sin as well as the
absolution of sin and our Priests are here to help us. St. Francis de
Sales sums this up beautifully: "Go to your confessor; open your
heart to him; display to him all the recesses of your soul; take the
advice that he will give you with the utmost humility and simplicity.
For God, Who has an infinite love for obedience, frequently renders
profitable the counsels we take from others, but especially from those
who are the guides of our souls."
- Trust in God’s mercy.
We serve a merciful and loving God who is always ready to forgive us.
We need to trust and have courage that our Heavenly Father only wants
what is best for us. Ponder the words of Pope St. John Paul II: ”Confession
is an act of honesty and courage – an act of entrusting ourselves,
beyond sin, to the mercy of a loving and forgiving God”
Dr.
Peter Kreeft says, “The Church is a hospital for sinners, not a museum
for Saints” We all sin and fall short. Let’s be mindful that these sins
are a weight around our neck, they obscure our vision and they are
obstacles to our relationship with Christ. Going to Reconciliation more
frequently is a great step, but consider the opportunities to shed this
burden through increased self-awareness, different actions, deeper
reflection, a stronger prayer life and a sincere trust in the mercy of
God. Leading faithful Catholic lives centered in Christ is challenging
enough.
Maybe, just maybe, we can stop tripping ourselves up along the way.
Mr.
Randy Hain is President of Serviam Partners and is a sought-after
executive coach and leadership consultant for business leaders and
companies. He is the Senior Editor for the Integrated Catholic Life™,
which he co-founded with Deacon Mike Bickerstaff in 2010.
Randy is a
prolific writer and frequent presenter on a number of topics including
faith, family, Catholic men’s issues, autism advocacy, fatherhood,
faith/work integration, careers, authenticity, leadership and human
capital.
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